I was reading some blogs today and came across one that talked about just worrying about today. Funny how we look ahead and think but ‘what
if?’ and ‘but what about this’ or ‘how am I going to handle that?’
I recently lost my ability to get up by myself. I spent a day in the hospital running tests. The ER doctor just felt that all of a sudden my body said ‘I’ve had enough’ and decided not to work anymore. So I am doing some home health care home therapy to strengthen legs and knees and arms so I can get back what I had just a week and a half ago. I may not have been able to walk more than a few steps with a walker and use the wheelchair for transportation, but I was still working part-time using an office chair to tool around in. It has been a huge shock to deal with the let down of my body and my strength and the abrupt shift to being home bound.
In some ways I am not sorry for the rest, but the suddenness and the difficulty in coping with the change has been a bit of a trial. Getting through each day is dependent on prayer. Therapy is going well..I see them 5 days a week right now. I can tell when I stand to transfer, that my legs and knees feel stronger but I still cannot get out of the bed without help. Where I used to rock forward and up using momentum to help lift me that doesn’t work so well anymore. Hopefully all the therapy and exercises will strengthen the core muscles and help me with that also. I know it will take some time. The difficulty lies in not worrying about how long it might take and just deal with each day as it happens. It makes the world very small, but also easier to deal with. Here’s to more of the journey…