Apparently, an unexpected hospital stay, full of fear, and the unknown, lack of sleep and emotional ups and downs can really take a toll on you! I am back at home. I had a few days of home health care to train me to give myself my IV’s and now I’m on my own. Last night was uneventful, but this morning was a little scary. I finished my IV and was preparing the saline flush when I noticed about a 2″ air bubble in the line. I knew you had to get that out, but I wasn’t sure how to do it safely. I called the home health care “hot line” to get help and they put a nursing supervisor on the line with me. I had to close off my lines, empty my saline syringe, and reattach it to draw out the air bubble. In the process, you get a tinge of your own blood that you draw out until the line is airfree. Then, you close it off again, get a new syringe of saline and flush the line again. Then, you flush it with heperin and you’re done. Simple, right? I thanked the nurse, hung up the phone and promptly fell apart emotionally, crying for seemingly no reason for several minutes. Having gone through the change of life, these emotional swings are a little disconcerting and quite upsetting. I’m no longer used to it and I’m not enjoying it a bit! It just makes me realize how emotional and trying this past week has been for me. I just wonder when I will get my equilibrium back!